It was a day filled with long awaited hellos, and long dreaded see you laters. We had a lot to do, and we got a lot done. the day went by so fast. before i knew it, i was home again. i then did a few things around the house, and went to bed early.
And I laid there, in the dead of night, and cried. I cried my eyes out. I cried because that was the very moment that I realized that what I have now, will soon be gone. And that my friend, is what hurts the most. Almost unbearable. It's a pain that digs deep inside your heart and attacks what is closest to you. It steals what is important to you. It gives this feeling that something is tearing your stomach out. Twisting, pulling in ways you cant even imagine. But then, it just goes numb. And you lay there, alone, thinking, about everything. life, experiences, friends, family, homes, memories. And thinking; thinking is what will kill you. I have come to find.
I have made something here that nothing in the world can replace. And nobody can take it from me. I have countless homes here in Germany that I can run to. Countless families. Countless friends. Countless. Innumerable. Nothing can adequate up to what is here.
Erlebnis.
My time here is coming to an end, but that doesn't mean that I mustn't continue on. Building, going, doing, experiencing, sharing. I will live on in Germany, from what I've showed people, from what I've given, and from what I have taught. And Germany will live on in me, from what I have learned, from what I have experienced, and from what I have seen. I've said this many times already, but I will be back. And until then, I can only relish in the precious memories that reside in my heart.
Sweet Serendipity.
